The decision to visit a nudist swingers resort as a monogamous lesbian in a new relationship might seem peculiar, especially when considering the author’s journey from identifying as bisexual in her 20s to embracing her lesbian identity in her 40s. Yet, this trip was something she felt compelled to do, driven by a mix of professional curiosity, personal exploration, and a desire to challenge her own commitment to monogamy. Despite her wife’s full support and trust, the decision to embark on this solo adventure was not without its doubts. The thought of a 40-something lesbian mom, who loves sweets and is now in a closed relationship, venturing into a world of open sexuality and nakedness felt almost absurd. Still, she couldn’t shake the feeling that this was an experience she needed to have.
Preparing for the trip brought its own set of challenges, starting with the simple act of packing. What does one wear to a nudist resort? The author settled on a few sundresses, a bathing suit, and some bold accessories like oversized hats and statement necklaces—hoping they might either distract from or enhance her nude form. The resort, she knew, had both clothed and nude areas, with specific rules about attire in places like the dining room. As she packed, she couldn’t help but wonder if this was one of those adventures better left unexplored. But she pressed on, driven by a sense of intrigue and a desire to push her boundaries.
Upon arrival, the experience was far from what she had imagined. There were no public orgies, no leering eyes, and no sense of chaos. Instead, the resort felt surprisingly normal. She checked in, unpacked her minimal clothing, and then, with a mix of nervousness and determination, took off all her clothes. Adorning herself with a large necklace and hat, she set out to explore the resort, her confidence growing with each step. The other guests were friendly, and she quickly found herself nodding and waving to fellow nudists heading to the pool or beach. The initial unease fades as she realizes that being naked in this setting wasn’t so different from being topless at a beach—a familiar and surprisingly liberating experience.
The resort’s atmosphere was defined by a sense of community and respect. The author was struck by how the other guests and staff embraced her for who she was—a lesbian in a monogamous relationship—without judgment. They listened when she shared her story and even offered to show her around, introductions included. She quickly learned about the unwritten rules of the swingers’ lifestyle: clear communication, consent, and respect. While she didn’t engage in any sexual activities, she found herself drawn to the sense of honesty and openness that permeated every interaction. The resort felt like a bubble of kindness and understanding, a stark contrast to the often superficial and judgmental world outside.
The days passed in a blur of activities, from lounging by the pool to walking the beach and enjoying themed nights like the “bare as you dare glow” party and “fetish night.” The author found herself laughing and connecting with people from all walks of life—CEOs, craftsmen, and individuals of various sexual orientations. While the majority of the guests were heterosexual couples, she also met bisexual women and a diverse group of people united by their desire to explore their desires in a safe and consensual environment. The whole experience felt like “grown-up summer camp,” where people could be their authentic selves without fear of rejection or judgment.
In the end, the trip was a profound exercise in self-discovery. The author returned home with a renewed sense of confidence and a deeper understanding of her own identity. While she doesn’t see herself returning to the resort—her wife has no interest in the lifestyle, and she’s content with their monogamous relationship—the experience reaffirmed her commitment to honesty, communication, and living life on her own terms. Most importantly, it reminded her of the beauty of human connection and the power of creating spaces where people can be themselves without fear. The resort may have been a place of nakedness and exploration, but it was also a testament to the kindness and compassion that can exist when people come together with shared values of respect and understanding.
